Chicken Little

I just got back from shoe shopping and a mani/pedi. Rough life, right?

I didn't enjoy it at all.

I am getting my engagement pictures taken this evening, and the shoes I was going to wear I discovered were literally hanging onto my feet by a thread. But because I was afraid of being late, I had to rush through picking out a replacement with really enjoying the hunt like I normally do. That wasn't the really stressful part, though.

I was sitting in the massage chair being taken care of by two different people, and instead of just relaxing and being excited about getting photos taken that I really never expected to have, I'm glued to the local news, worried that storms that are four hours north of Dallas are going to come here and ruin this evening. I have been worried about this since last night and probably won't be able to relax until we're actually in the middle of the shoot. Oh, and I was also worried about my car getting towed most of that time.

Unfortunately, this gives you of just a glimpse of the worries running through my brain since I got engaged 2 weeks ago. Instead of enjoying this exciting time where I get to be showered with gifts, shop, decorate, primp, be with family and friends, and prepare for the Sacrament of Marriage to the most wonderful man, I have been paralyzed by all these "what if" scenarios. And every time one passes, a new one takes it's place. There are countless things that could go wrong between now and December, and I will literally go crazy before then if this keeps up.

I know what Satan is trying to do. He knows my difficulties in trusting God. He's distracting me with lots of tasks and responsibilities that keep me from rest. But this time is more important than ever for me to cling to my Lord and believe His truth in preparing me to be a wife.

2 Timothy 1:7 "For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline."